Truth Be Told

there was a time when sin was the gin in my system
bankrupt of wisdom my daily mission was
to blow smoke and jizm between the legs
of some damsel distressed enough to let me split them
no vision just haze deaf dumb and blind
to listen to the knowledge from the Ancient of Days
was the furthest thing on my mind &
the only close encounters that i sought
were with those of the female kind behind closed doors
intent on turning virgins into whores
i've laid with scores of women all the while
proclaiming to be a Christian in belief
yet completely ignorant to the reality of the sacred
words written that have the power to bring back
a righteous soul risen from the grave in brief i was
completely unprepared for the return of the thief in the night
like a loose leaf blowing in the wind I was disconnected
from the Tree of Life in flight from my calling like Jonah
sleep walking in a spiritual coma dead to the reality
that was just within my heart i was consumed
by the dark and a part of a wicked generation
that only receives pleasure from satisfying carnal
sensations thinking that salvation would come
from just having faith the fruit that i produced
were works worthy enough to cast me into the lake
of fire bcuz i was beguiled by the snake and viper
to ignore the stake of Messiah for the sake of desire
my tendencies were to break the entire Law
of the Spirit of life in Yahshua because I was
a pursuer of sin and death which kept me
from being blessed as my steps were stage left
in relation to the Inner Way which sinner's pray
to enter but can't center their being on freeing
their body from the clutches of vice like mice
caught in a trap from their attempt to get cheese
as the life within me was being squeezed out the more
i chose to appease my carnality as i was diseased by
immorality and without the armor which allowed
for the spiritual hosts of wickedness to seize my body
through the principalities which we all wrestle against
but ever since that day when I couldn't look myself
in the mirror my vision began to become clearer &
i started to understand that only the command of my Father
can bring this man back from the waste land where I once
fanned the flames of disobedience with beastly descents
which increased my sexual sense intense at the expense
of the squandering of my spiritual countenance
but it was my mawmaw who gave me the consciousness
to always stay prayerful no matter what the circumstance &
to be careful with my soul and not do the devil's dance
while mama told me that everything good to me isn't good for me
which put everything in perspective and so here I am today
at the ripe age of 36 still learning to carry my own crucifix
and how to submit to the will of the Most High
as I find myself covenanted with a true lover
who has helped me to discover the deeper
meanings of love and trust as well as help me
tame the animal blood inside that arouses the lust
that causes sin to encrust itself around my Temple
but now as I peer into the window of my soul
I can see that what I've been through has been
central to the road that i've traveled to make me whole &
truth be told i've come a long way on this journey
to the point that I understand Christianity deceived me
which is why now i identify myself as a Hebrew Israelite &
believe me when I say this path hasn't been easy
and if I could do it all over again I'd choose to be more priestly &
less beastly...


To Be Continued...