Micropoem #7

i am the sum totality of my decisions,
a contradiction in motion seeking to
reconcile the differences between me
myself and I while embarking on a journey
of rediscovery to connect with the
innocence lost when I courted ignorance
and was found in pure and absolute bliss.
this is not reality, but self created illusion
of time wasted like the senseless seed 
i spilled into random wombs that bore no fruit;
so now, my desire is to impregnate time
with purpose and reproduce with meaningful
thoughts so at last i can enjoy my offspring &
the blessed union of the body soul and spirit.