Suicide Note

"for he who has died has been made right from sin..." Romans 6.7

frankly
i'm tired
tired of the struggle against self
the lust of the flesh
the lust of the eye &
the pride of life
to which i've been enslaved
for the 35 years i've breathed death
on this plane of life trapped inside
my own spiritual confine
combined with the confusions
of this depraved and morally bankrupt world
so i'm ending it all today
right here
right now
bcuz there's no way
no how that i'm going to continue
living like this
i'd rather kiss worms &
sleep in earth than to go on
giving birth to the dearth of righteousness &
though i might just miss this pit of flesh
i'm sure that death is preferable
than existing in this miserable bag of blood
that currently transfers the currents of me &
in death i'm sure that i'll be free
to finally be who i was born to become
for then like the morn i'll rise with the Son &
shine the light that all are meant to see
when they enter the presence of me
subjected to the impulses of life &
finally dead to the instincts that have
so passionately controlled every fiber of my soul
so goodbye world
no more will you entice me with your delights &
tantalizing sights that spites the way of right
that i've been summoned to course
bcuz i've finally decided to return to the Source
from which I came as I now lay down this wretched life of mine
slain in the Name of the Father, Son and Holy Spirit
let he who has ears hear it...